Embracing emotions (haibun)

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One expresses emotions in varied ways and for some it is spontaneous and simply who they are.  Perhaps you are like me when you see someone you love and have not seen in a while, you run up to the person and hug them, kiss them on each cheek.

Overjoyed the morning I felt my son moving in my tummy…the basement of our new home had flooded and I could not hide my joy.  Could not relate to the damage, the flood or any problem whatsoever for a human life did somersaults in MY tummy!!

Oh how I weep with joy when I see my child performing in a choir, when my son did a guitar solo and sang a Bob Dylan song, when they graduated both from high school and college;  and even today when I see them smiling and teasing each other…the joy just takes too much place in my heart and so I weep.

Perhaps your emotions are too close to the surface and your heart swells so much you weep the moment a word hurts your feelings; perhaps it is anger that is too difficult to conceal and you shout, rage or cry again. Maybe you have always felt life dealt you a raw deal and everyone and everything you touch must be for your loss, like a child who stomps off angry because Mommy would not let him eat candy before dinner.

And then there are those who do not express emotions as easily and it eats at them, fester and makes them sick…they are not “at ease” hence it stirs “dis-ease”.  The persons who cannot weep when they grieve, express their love when they long, show their joy when they are gripped with such a powerful love…yet to look at their body language, one cannot read the joy, happiness, rapture or sadness.

Sometimes I speak to a person who has gone through the most dreadful experiences in his past, heard such hurtful comments, witnessed such atrocities and yet I hear no emotion in the voice…flat, no affect whatsoever.  Over time the dam may open slowly when a person feels safe…In this case, a person had to hide all emotion to survive. To give in to emotion may weaken him/her and so life goes on with explosive emotions inflating his/her soul…heart, like a ticking time bomb.

Emotions are not excluded to humans, and we can see that with animals that we love. It could be a horse you would groom for hours before riding, your dog you have walked, bathed like a baby and cuddled with a towel to keep him warm, a cat that leans in close to get a pet, a scratch but deep inside we know it is to be close to you…expressing their emotions in their loving and natural way.

My grandfather had rescued a golden mix a few years before he got sick.  GrandPapa died later in his bed at his home; when the ambulance came to take his body, Princess followed the cot whimpering along the side and then went running in the basement howling so loudly. She did not come up for a whole week, so great was her grief.

 

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confused and scared

a stranger whispers in her ear

“…luv you mum”

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this frail body

seasoned with dementia

puckers her lips

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beaming,

hand on her belly

feeling flip-flops

© Tournesol ’15

Heeding Haiku with HA ~ MindLoveMisery’s Menagerie

She must be Zen…

Hey, GiGi, wake up!!! Hey, GiGi, shove over!!!1060018_406335162815077_1762848578_n  Come on lil’ kitty, I want to clean the couch before mommy an daddy get home.

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Maybe if I get closer with this loud monster, she’ll run off.

 

 

 

 

Sheeesh, she does not seem to be afraid…wow!!

My Bette would be on top of my fridge by now.scardy bette Jan 2013

 

Guess GiGi is a very relaxed cat. Maybe it is the country air.  Let’t get a bit closer, that’ll scare her.1063605_406708396111087_2046750192_n

Nope…sheeesh!!! she must be a Yoga (Yogi?) Guru or Mindfulness Master or something…gotta get her over at my place to teach some relaxation to Bette. GiGi you are the Calm of Calmness, the serene of serenity.  You rock, kitty:)

Lots of unconditional love!

20130628_183552 20130628_183449 20130628_183500What an amazing weekend!  I am surrounded by 5 species who are giving me so much attention.  It will soon go to my head!!  I’m telling you, pet sitting is not difficult here, that’s for sure!  I am getting all the lovin’ a girl can ask for…

I am getting kisses, getting nudged and cuddled and THAT is not something to take for granted. No sireee; plus they do not expect anything from me except loving them.  Only pets can really give you that unconditional kind of love (except for my mom of course).

And since I do enjoy the quietness of the country, just birds, occasional car…I can reap this type of environment and write or read at my heart`s content. No disturbances whatsoever.  If one of the pooches need to go out, they stand up, move around a little to show that they are alive but no barking or whimpering on their part.  Nope, they sure are amazing!!

And the felines are just as amazing.  GiGi the grey little one will jump on the kitchen counter so I can run some water for her but I 20130628_191738don`t let her do that.  Their master have tried to wean her off that habit.  I just fill up her dish with “fresh” water right next to the sink and she loves it.

20130628_185640My heart does go out to Bill, though as he is sore. Yep, his joints are aching alright and I can so relate some days.  He has eyes that make you want to weep and cuddle him, but not too hard so as not to hurt the little fella.

The girls are pretty nice…so gentle considering their size! Mornings they nudge their noses on my bed to tell me “they gotta GO!” but20130628_183358 they don`t whine…they patiently wait.  Amazing!!!

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Now Shabby, he is so adorable with one green eye and one blue eye.  He tried to run away last year but I got his number this year and I check him much better.  For some reason,he seems to like me more and wants to stick around and comes close to me so I can pet him…both felines let me hold them for more than a minute.  Well, GiGi is a suckee alright, she just enjoys being held and petted.

So that`s how I start the first half of my weekend…Canada Day weekend here.  My friends in Toronto are also celebrating Gay Pride and I wish I could see that amazing parade they have every year on Yonge Street…it is a sight to see!!

20130628_191658But for now, I am just as content relaxing with my friends.  CL