do you remember when…(free verse – anything goes) Daily reflections – Nov 25 2019

 

Do you remember when?

 

do you remember when I fell?

i do…

do you remember there was so much blood?

i do…

do you remember when the police came?

I do…

do you remember how mad you were at ME?

i do…

do you remember when you lied to the police?

i do…

do you remember when the ambulance would not let you come with me?

i do… and I sighed with relief

do you remember when the doctors pushed you away?

i do…

do you remember when the security guard took you outside?

i don’t, because that’s when I lost touch with reality…

they say I went into a semi-coma.

it felt odd and if there is such a thing as heaven, I bet this is what it must feel like.

my head no longer hurt, my arms were all healed, my back felt smooth and all the bumps and marks disappeared. my legs were smooth and pretty and I felt like I was floating. my hair was thick and fluffy. It was a miracle that all the bald spots had filled out. i truly must have been in heaven.

suddenly I felt something licking my face. omg, Jamie, my Irish terrier was alive!! he was so excited to see me and me too!! it tickled me when he licked my nose that i could not stop giggling. it felt so weird to laugh but a good weird. oh, Jamie, i missed him so much. do you remember when he would bark at you to protect me. you really did not like that and then one day, he was no longer here. you said he got run over by a car. do you remember telling me that?

i could hear someone far away calling my name. there was a lot of beeping sounds and the voices came closer and closer.

and then I hurt again…

why does living hurt so much?

 

do you remember when I got out of the hospital on crutches?

i do…

do you remember the red brick house where I went to live?

i do…

the lady, there had a gentle voice and soft bulky arms she started to wrap around me. but I backed away thinking she wanted to hurt me and then her warm smile told me otherwise. it is odd how the body can speak too. every movement of her body spelled kindness and love.

do you remember that red brick house?

oh that’s right, you were not allowed near that house…

and that’s when life started to hurt a little less every day…

© Cheryl-Lynn ‘19/11/25

 

Reflections on what was and what could be…

mid-season travels ~ Troiku

Image may contain: tree, sky, bird, plant, outdoor and nature

squirrels scurry
birds halfway to southern plains
wish I were a bird

squirrels scurry
stopping to munch
and tease indoor cats

birds halfway to southern plains
balmy weather welcomes
feathered friends

wish I were a bird
soaring over lakes and meadows
poop on pedophiles

© Tournesol 2019/11/09

Image may contain: cat and outdoor

 

First snowfall – Daily Moments – Troibun

A disturbing nudge on her shoulder kicks her out of her sleep. Her longtime friend and foe is ever consistent. It’s November, and dawn has not yet shown its face. Her cold dark room reminds her of death. It is after all, the month of death. She hears a neighbour roll over in bed. The springs are probably as old as his grandfather but hardly a nuisance to hear. In fact, it’s comforting to hear the expected. There is life upstairs.

She pulls the duvet over her head and whispers her morning mantra, “Please help me be a better person and make this day slightly different…Amen.” Shuffling to the washroom, she peaks in the room at the end of the hall. Squinting, she sees her black feline sleeping soundly by the windowsill.

In the kitchen she starts the coffee. She grinds the coffee beans at night to ensure quiet in the morning. Pulling the curtain in the living room, she sees dark purple shades painted across the sky. What a gift to see this performance offering hope for a new day…yet, it’s all a lie, really. Nothing changes.
Tiptoeing to the washroom, she closes the door runs her morning bath while the coffee maker does its magic. Hot water oils her joints…sort of, at least to function, maybe enough to walk to the bus stop today. Lowering her body so her shoulders are covered in the hot steaming water, she lets out a soft groan exhaling the bad.

The last gasps of the coffee wizard announce the end of her bath.
Sitting in her mother’s old rocker, she sips her first taste of happiness leaning on two ice packs. The aroma fills the air. The ice slowly numbs the pain on her neck and lower back; the rising sun puts a smile on her parched lips. Who knows? Maybe today will be different.

For decades, she’s always told herself that pain is her friend. If she feels aches, it means she’s alive rather than paralysed and unfeeling. She has the energy to work, to love, the passion to care despite the lulls in the day or night, she still lives and feels.

Accepting her limits is the secret. Walking too far or housecleaning in one shot will force her into inaction for a day or two. On days she cannot function, she reads, writes, edits photos or binges on Netflix…always pleasures to take her mind off physical discomforts…the nagging, accusing poking of her stalker or long-time partner?

dawn squints
billowy shadows linger
first snowfall

dawn squints
cringing at intruders
morning strain

billowy shadows linger
shift in autumn’s speed
chasing winter

first snowfall
brightening muddy paths
cooling giddy tongues

(c) Tournesol 19/11/07

Happy Birthday Celestine

 

She writes words that move you; sensual, romantic and insightful. Like bees and butterflies producing beauty, she graces us with her haiku and cherita.

creates melodies
like blue breasted kingfishers
in her poetry
singing collectively
Happy Birthday, Celestine!

© tournesol ‘19/11/04

Publicaitons: Haiku Rhapsodies & Whispers at Dawn (a collection of Cheritas)
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