A chat about bodily functions is our prompt today at Linda Hill’s SoCS, which brought to mind a funny story. When my daughter was pregnant in 2004, I was starting menopause. We would go shopping together and suddenly she would let out gas and then move aisle very quickly whispering to me why. We would giggle because I was starting the same problem. So here we were at both ends of the spectrum of womanhood, farting away at our leisure and not caring at all. Is fart a bad word, by the way? I am part French, so we are bit more open about our language and translated in English may sound rude, so I apologize if that is not easy to read.
On to another memory with my daughter again seeing her singing in The South Shore Children’s Chorus. The choir would sing songs from Les Miserable and they sounded so beautiful that I could not hold back my tears. At the end of the show, she came up to me, tight lipped and squinting eyes, asking why I was crying! I tried to explain to her that when Mommy is overwhelmed with beauty, I am moved to tears. Well! this 10-year-old was having nothing of it. On future presentations, I sat further away so she would not see me weep of joy. What can I say? I cry when I am happy, moved, tired of pain and sad.
Now lastly, since I have been struggling so much over the years and even more so in the past two years, my joint pain is something I dream of finding relief EVEN if it were for once a week. Once a week not having the pain wake me up when I roll over. Once a week when I get up, I don’t feel knives jabbing in my knees. For over thirty years I was diagnosed with osteoarthritis of my neck along with Fibromyalgia. Finally, I found a rheumatologist who found I had rheumatism on my collar bones (hence why my shoulders hurt so much and is not because I type too much), a mix of osteoarthritis, arthritis and rheumatism made me sigh with relief because those conditions are considered more real than Fibromyalgia (in society and the medical field). The sad part is my GP does not want to treat me, just suggests I retire which has no way of making my body feel better and I am waiting for a new rheumatologist since the other one moved.
But, on a good note, I am hopeful. Last May I went to Vancouver, BC. where cannabis is sold in many shops and purchased a jar of MJ cream to see if that might relieve the pain. It did nothing but a tiny tingle on my neck, nothing on my knees or shoulders. So, when I came back to Montreal, I asked my GP if she would consider giving me a prescription for cannabis. That was June 20th and I only received a response from one dispensary in response to my request for membership along with my doctor’s prescription. They certainly took their time. But I want to try different things to find some relief. When I say try something, I certainly am not interested in the THC high however I realize in some of the teas or creams have to have a little bit. Well, we shall see when I drop by sometime this week to check out Club Compassion. Wish me luck!
(c) Cheryl-Lynn Roberts
Written for the Friday Prompt for Saturday’s Stream of Consciousness.